The air was so thick,

it felt hard to breath,

silence and anticipation so encompassing the surroundings

as though nothing else existed.

The thoughts scattered in my head

urged me to run fast and hard and not look back,

fear and weakness

but that wasn't who I wanted to be

Who I am.

I had to stay.

My everything was about to be laid out on a table before me.

This was the final test

I could not show weakness.

I dug deeper inward

for the confidence and strength I knew I had

to complete the first part of my

journey to a new me

A door that had to be closed

before a new one could open

just another mountain that had to be moved

with strength courage and confidence

and today was just another day in my life where

I had to muster these abilities from within my core

so i took a deep breath

let it out with a nervous sigh

and in that instant mustered the courage

to move forward

no matter what the outcome

I put myself out there.

In the end it felt like the longest wait of my life

but the results were of pure elation and relief

and a greater confidence from within that

I had taken for granted and

never acknowledged before.

This was a significant day

in my journey to something greater.