You slander me all over town

spreading gossip and putting me down.

I never once sunk to your level by saying things that weren't true,

in fact, though I could have, I don't think  I ever spoke ill of you.

Its sad really that our child hears everything that you say, when you speak ill of me, its them you betray.

I maintained my virtue to the bitter end and when it was all said and done still I offered to be your friend,

A gift I know now you didn't deserve really but I offered anyway.

Why I feel surprised about your behavior and actions, I really can't say.

I loved you once and gave you my heart, but you betrayed it from the start,

But through the years I thought maybe, live and learn,

when in reality it just left me open for a new burn.

So lie your lies and have your say,

this is a game I'm too grown up to play,

I never felt the need to place blame, too bad you never felt the same.

I'm your loss and she is your gain and about right now I'm feeling no pain.

When I ended our relationship I never second guessed,

You were left bitter and now the new girl is because she will always be second best,

even our child knows this to be true, its really sad that they can see right through,

the things you do and the things you say make our child see you in a different way

I just want my child to be removed from this fight, not to have to choose sides or decide who is wrong and who is right

There are no winners in this game and way too much pointing fingers and placing blame,

"As ye sow, so shall ye reap" and I'm not losing any sleep.

Next week I will look back at all this and just laugh while you're still stewing in your own Wrath.

You can't untangle your life by tying it in knots,

and when you build a life with betrayl eventually it rots....

Good Luck with your life and I wish you well and it doesn't bother me in the least that you wanna codemn me to hell.

Bitterness will fill you with emptiness and regret

I refuse to allow your stabs in the dark make me upset.

Tags: Renee

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The air was so thick,

it felt hard to breath,

silence and anticipation so encompassing the surroundings

as though nothing else existed.

The thoughts scattered in my head

urged me to run fast and hard and not look back,

fear and weakness

but that wasn't who I wanted to be

Who I am.

I had to stay.

My everything was about to be laid out on a table before me.

This was the final test

I could not show weakness.

I dug deeper inward

for the confidence and strength I knew I had

to complete the first part of my

journey to a new me

A door that had to be closed

before a new one could open

just another mountain that had to be moved

with strength courage and confidence

and today was just another day in my life where

I had to muster these abilities from within my core

so i took a deep breath

let it out with a nervous sigh

and in that instant mustered the courage

to move forward

no matter what the outcome

I put myself out there.

In the end it felt like the longest wait of my life

but the results were of pure elation and relief

and a greater confidence from within that

I had taken for granted and

never acknowledged before.

This was a significant day

in my journey to something greater.

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I search and search for a love beyond compare,

a diamond in the rough with heart and soul to share.

I breath, I sleep, I wait,

I find it hard to concentrate.

Complete and yet alone in life, something is amiss. A longing deep inside me yearns for that look, that touch, that kiss. 

Find me, shake me, move me, wake me.

I want to feel your heart beat inside my own chest.

I want to be the one that knows you best.

Are you the person I can't live without?

I need you to prove it beyond a doubt.

Then we could be together till the end of days, each day discovering to love in new ways.

Inspire me to share with you all the things that real love can do.

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Through my eyes

things didn't always seem so clear.

Decisions before me weren't so vivid

and day to day life

was limited in its possibilities.

Hopes,dreams and aspirations

seem to be a fantasy

and life just passed by

without reason or rhyme.

It was as if I had been asleep  for so long

and living in a daze,

when suddenly I awoke from my slumber

with eyes anew. 

I began a new journey,

seeing things so clearly.

Colors became

brilliant,

life took on new hope and purpose,

dreams began to focus.

The world was my playground

and I had yet to experience it.

My five senses finally awakened

and something began growing

from deep inside me,

Radiance.

Suddenly not only the world around me

looked and felt more beautiful but

I did too.

The possibilities,

splendor, and beauty

of loving yourself

opens up a whole new world

that some never experience.

Something changed inside

and helped me see,

Art was never so inspiring,

Music had never sounded so melodic,

Love never seemed so infectuous

and life never seemed 

so worthwhile before.

And now

I wish everyone could see the world

through my eyes.

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Honest and true she will stand by you,

holding your hand in an effort to understand.

With an open mind and loving heart,

listening intently to every part.

Knowing the words as if they were her own,

confidently showing you

You're not alone.

Whatever choices life may bring,

her wisdom and comfort are a constant thing.

Don't be afraid to look deep into her eyes,

no faults will condemn you,

please realize.

She's a strong woman and lives a full life,

never taking for granted

her own struggles and strife.

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I stared out my window at the moon

it seemed to stare back at me.

I imagined the face I saw in the moon was you.

I wanted to ask so many things. I began an awkward conversation with the moon, but it felt so comfortable to me.

We shared a moment.

Remembering. Understanding.

I knew the moon when I was young & niave and although so many years have passed we remain timeless, unchanged souls.

The moon has seen me in good times and bad, happry times and sad, we have seen each other through many seasons and for so many reasons without prejudice. The love and respect that we share has no need for actions or words its just there, and is the one constant. The moon is so moody and changeable though, sometimes bright and full, other times just slight glimmers and to expect it to remain is sure to lead to diappointment. But the moons soul and mine they intertwine.

Realization

After a while the moon lulled me to sleep like a lullaby. Basking in the glow of the moonbeams not wanting to wake up, wishing the night would last much longer than it did, knowing with morning light my friend the moon would be gone again, leaving me to drift through another day alone.

The moon is so seductive and calls to me. The moon has no power over me, though comforting and understanding when I feel the need. I will not be swayed. I refuse to compromise so I remain true to myself and continue on my path throughout the day knowing it will come and go again.

The moon will always be comforting but unchanging as I continue on. Although we will remain unconditional, I no longer feel enchanted. Something is lost or may never have been found. I search the days but do not feel and begin to wonder if I ever will. Throughout the days I miss my friend and long for the night with comforts once again, only to realise it is vain.

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